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a chronological stream of quotes, excerpts, or snippets that have proved to be poignant to me. heavily inspired by literaturegirl.

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July 11, 2026, 11:58 PM

I think having your own room should be a human right. I didn’t have my own room until I was 16 & once I had one, I became more productive creatively. not only could I just be with myself, but I could project my inner world to my outer world in an immediate way. to play/practice music in your room – what a dream.

I come from a lineage of hermits. alone is how I charge my batteries & organize my inner self. but I have a tendency to hide. I guess I developed a desire to be the best self around everyone and if I couldn’t feel up to it, I would just hide.

Sarte has said:: “hell is other people” & I truly felt that. tides of shyness would explode over me and I just felt so painfully other. as if surrounded by invisible walls I felt that I was just watching all the interactions, pondering if the things I would say would be ok. but mostly I would just think for so long that I would say nothing & show nothing.

it’s a lonely feeling when you can’t show your real self to others. maybe because of the fear that they won’t accept you as you are – maybe you’re actually too loud? too intense? too vivid? but to be genuinely in the moment & not thinking always- even at the risk of being disliked is also the way to be found by the people you really vibe with.

life pushed me to change when I moved to London from Tallinn. I found a new version of myself that speaks a different language and is less afraid of humans & the World because I was forced to interact. can’t say that the transition was easy though. I feel it’s very true that it is in the darkest of night that the seeds of a new life & a new self are planted. I just couldn’t keep on isolating myself – things were not going the way that I had planned & I was forced to put myself into uncomfortable situations. I was far away from home, from family & the friends I had known & on the brink of a life that was new & foreign to me. It got too lonely even for a loner. it was for the best. I can actually talk to people now. & even even express it when I don’t agree with stuff.

so if anyone shy here is pondering, if to go on an adventure. I really recommend it.

— Iiris Vesik, lead singer of "Night Tapes"

July 10, 2026, 9:53 PM

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I'll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesn't make any sense.

— Rumi

July 7, 2026, ?:?? PM

The wise are not conspicuous in their actions
Or given to much talking.
When troubles arise,
they are not irritated.

They produce, but do not hoard;
They act, but expect no praise;
They build, but do not dwell therein.

And because they do not dwell therein,
They never depart.

— Lao Tzu

July 6, 2026, ?:?? PM

Keep walking, though there’s no place to get to.
Don’t try to see through the distances.
That’s not for human beings.

Move within, but don’t move the way fear makes you move.

Today, like every other day, we wake up empty and frightened.
Don’t open the door to the study and begin reading.
Take down a musical instrument.
Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.

There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

— Rumi

July 4, 2026, ?:?? PM

Whenever you go out-of-doors, draw the chin in, carry the crown of the head high, and fill the lungs to the utmost; drink in the sunshine; greet your friends with a smile, and put soul into every handclasp. Do not fear being misunderstood, and do not waste a minute thinking about your enemies. Try to fix firmly in your mind what you would like to do, and then, without veering off direction, you will move straight to the goal.

Keep your mind on the great and splendid things you would like to do, and then, as the days go gliding by, you will find yourself unconsciously seizing upon the opportunities that are required for the fulfillment of your desire, just as the coral insect takes from the running tide the elements that it needs. Picture in your mind the able, earnest, useful person you desire to be, and the thought you hold is hourly transforming you into that particular individual...

Thought is supreme. Preserve a right mental attitude — the attitude of courage, frankness, and good cheer. To think rightly is to create. All things come through desire and every sincere prayer is answered. We become like that on which our hearts are fixed. Carry your chin in and the crown of your head high. We are gods in the chrysalis.

― Elbert Hubbard